Es war eine Mutter ( Art + Work)

Original Aquarelle Artwork “Es war eine Mutter” /JustbluedutchArt 2020

This post is actually inspired by recent events in my life. I recently had this painting done inspired by current situations and I thought it might be a good idea to relate it to ” a day in the life of a Mother”. I have done quite a lot of painting to survive the lockdowns and so far, it has taught me great lessons about motherhood as well. Now you know why I love this subject for my artwork.

Maybe not everyone can actually relate to Motherhood subjects and all about Mother and son/daughter stories but then at least it´s our own story. Mother and daughter is not always full of sweet moments, reality can be tough, it can also be stressful, chaotic, tiring, and yes, just too much to handle.

All parents love their children, there´s no question about that but how to teach them to learn without the classroom. For a fact that in Germany, Homeschooling is actually illegal since 1919 ( European Court of Human Rights).But not in the times of Corona.This article even had quite notable explanations.

Homeschooling is not so “cozy” as it sounds. Because of Covid-19 Pandemic, we´ve been through so many Lockdowns, before and after Christmas actually. And now, in the middle of Winter, with zero public life, schools stays closed along with playfrounds and libraries. Lockdown is supposed to end by Feb.14 but there´s no bright lead yet when will our lives return to normal.We are waiting…

Motherhood in different colors

I realized that I don´t even have the right to complain.Afterall I only have 1 child. There are more parents who juggles between their dayjobs and household responsibilities, and yes, they are bearing more load than I do.I do have high respect for them. I´ve known a friend who even had twins, and had more children to handle.A dear friend of mine just had her baby recently born, and she also have another Grade schooler, a very active one.She bears all these with her two full hands.How do they do that is simply amazing and praiseworthy!

But imagine the chaos…. the “heartfelt” agony.

Homeoffice seemed to be the newest trend nowadays. Working from home has its own benefits, but hey, have you ever tried working while your kid shouts and screams on your videoconferences? Funny as it may sounds but with us, life and struggle during Lockdown is real. I am sure I am not alone in this.

The moment we sit together in the table to go with Home study program doesn´t eventually ensures success in every subject.There has been fights, screaming, yelling and yes, pencils and papers flown in the air. The drama is real and so as the dilemma. The biggest problem that we faced is maintaining her focus and this has been challenging for both me and my daughter.

When I was in college, I did a part-time job tutoring kids from 6-10 years old. I normally help them with the main subjects and help them with their homework. The stress was different. With this Lockdown, the challenge was different as well.

No I was not blaming the virus. Honestly ,sometimes I blame myself as well. Maybe I was not prepared for this and my patience limit is so small that I excuse myself for a meltdown as well. I am tired and in need of a break but yes–motherhood knows no such breaks.I don´t like this isolation anymore and I wanted it to end.

Anyway,one time while we are learning about the seasons of the year ,we encountered this song ;

Es war eine Mutter” song by Nena ( originally in German)

Es war eine Mutter ( There was one Mother)
Die hatte vier Kinder ( She had 4 children)
Den Frühling ( Spring)
Den sommer ( Summer )
Den Herbst und den Winter. ( Autumn and Winter)

So motherhood and seasons of the year have one thing in common, right or maybe I just carried away by nature that I correlate them with Homeschooling and everything.The great thing is, life evolves and I was reminded that this too, shall pass and everything should not be permanent.Soon, everything will be over and chapters of our lives will also evolve, in other words, we are in a journey together.

Homeschooling might feel like Autumn and Winter right now.Parents struggled as well as children but then its not the end.Spring soon will come and Summer too.

Der Frühling bringt Blumen ( Spring bring flowers)
Der Sommer den Klee (Summer brings clover leaves)
Der Herbst bringt die Trauben ( Autumn brings the grapes)
Der Winter den Schnee. ( Winter brings snow)

Und wie sie sich schwingen ( and how they swing together)
Im Jahresreihn ( all year around)
So tanzen und singen ( Dancing and singing)
Wir fröhlich darein. ( we are all happy with it..)

Original Aquarelle artwork “Mutter” / JustbluedutchArt 2020

Homeschooling and on line learning is something that we´ve all embraced this year.There were more time spent in front of computers and tablets instead of actual class participation.Here in Germany, I must say that they had quite handled the crisis well when it comes to distance learning.My daughter spends almost 8 hours in a mask at school before.Washing their hands and divided in groups were her previous routines, then she was confined at home, with homeschooling and with me. I am grateful that the school had a precise plan for this crisis and have given us enough support that we´ve needed and another thing is, we have an access to technology which can be challenging in other countries.We received a weekly Plan for each lessons, and even with a timetable to achieve every day. There was enough Learning Platform offered and the activities listed are varied ,so children won´t feel bored and too squeezed. I particularly appreciate the online help and daily accountability as well. Some of the apps that helped us go through Homeschooling is Antolin app and Sofatutor.They even have Tablets to lend if families are without so everything comes handy.

Mother and son original Watercolor Art by JustbluedutchArt

Lessons learned and experiences gained, so as struggles were credibly overcame.Yes, we´ve been tired and fatigued, but we´ve never given up.As a mother, teaching my child is like feeding them. Its like nourish or undernourish them.Once again, it´s the choices that we make that affects us the most.We´re not yet there but I am sure, the end of the tunnel is not far behind.

Have you had any experience about Homeschooling? How was it?

Painting through Pandemic (Art +Work)

My own Artwork hangs in one corner of our little apartment

If there´s something nice, memorable and practical that came out of this Pandemic, I would say that its my Artwork. During Lockdown and everything, I coudn´t survived it without painting. I had made many Artworks, busied myself with lots of painting and making cards , and even more digesting DIY craft things.At home, I don´t need to wear mask, and I don´t worry about social distancing.I normally paint alone, solitary and always been sticking to my hobby journal.My Supplies are not that fancy, yes they could be expensive but then these Artist-grade materials are made to last .

I managed to sell quite of them, which I am super grateful.Grateful to those people who managed to appreciate my artwork and go to lengths of buying them…yes, even in the time of Pandemic. People who bought Art during Corona times are heaven´s sent…they are truly a blessing!

I mean, why would you buy an Art during Pandemic?

It means I could get more new Art supplies and paints, every penny counts!And the great thing about it, I have decided to fully embraced my life to be totally creative and doing everything handmade.I can´t recall the time that I bought from a store a card or decorative art piece or something….all the things I sent to my friends and families are all handmade.This thing called Art talent is in me so I am going to use it as long as its in me.Better to nourish it, than lose it.

Blue , gold and lots of Texture are very dominant in this piece

I have lots of unfinished paintings that sits in our bedroom and in other parts of the house.I don´t have enough space to place them but looking at them is just okay.It reminds me that I need to work on them once the inspiration kicks.The great thing about being a self taught Artist is that I never thought of myself being contained in one idea.I am actually free in my techniques and I can easily adapt to the basics and Art essentials whether its the form, color, size, gradient and intensity.I can use whatever medium I would like and not feeling guilty. That should be Art be….Free, brave and bold!

A relentless pursuit of making my artwork better and more soulful is what driving me to persevere.If I am going to do something in my life until the day I grow old then it would be this.I would be painting lots and lots of Abstract pieces, and get edgy with watercolor.When I stayed at home and the schools are closed, I struggled a lot to find time for myself.I tried running more, doing it more often despite of the cold weather and it helped me a lot to managed my stress.But nothing beats when I finished a painting…

I watched online what other people are doing and I am always inspired. i think its like Blogging, nothing really happens when you don´t do anything.People won´t read yours if you don´t write.So I guess that no matter what, keep on writing, keep on doing something that gives you life.

People got into gardening, which I have been very interested since I came here in Germany.Plants had become my children. Living with plants had change my life as well and I don´t think I can´t live without my plants either. Some call it funny but hey, it is something that plant lovers only understand.I have a devoted time for them and it´s my second nature to see any plant problem with my naked eyes.I think the top expenditures I have is my painting materials, then comes plants, and the rest are just plain bubble of life´s journey.

Art is a language that not all understand.I remember in my childhood days that not everyone in my class are good in drawing.I was helping my daughter with a drawing in our Homeschooling the other day and it really struck me like lightning.She is crying and telling me ” I want to have a life like you, I can´t draw that good, but I wanted to…I can´t draw cars, and my drawing of people sucks..” I note an agony in there. Art is misunderstood. It becomes a chore now, a homework to be done, a task that needs to be completed.

Naturally Art can be learned and even a kids artwork is a masterpiece, but the thing is, not everyone can really understands it, let alone Abstract pieces.I stopped worrying about Art. I just let myself go, and express what I think, what I feel and what my visions are.As I decide on which colors I used, the brush and pinsels, and the mediums that I will incorporate, there I am learning to communicate with my canvas.

Sometimes the communication within the painting is not clear, the subject is surreal, the colors are not complementing each other, it looked like a mess. There are many times I needed to breathe in and stop. making breaks and a pause so I can make everything fall into pieces into their form and gradients.Too much or less less texture it doesn´t matter.In the end, I can only say that the painting is done.

I knew it exactly when its time to drop the brush.

Nothing was easy during this Pandemic.It´s almost now in a year.This coming Spring we don´t know yet if life returns to normal, amid the long wait for vaccines and zero new infections.I have learned that ” nothing happens when you´re not working…”

Many times , out of frustration, I called myself a FAILED ARTIST. I failed many times and I almost give up. I doubted my own capabilities and become ungrateful of my talent. I stopped drawing, and I did not paint for a while.The end result : I lose. I became more frustrated and I learned to survived. This Pandemic have taught me to go back to my passion, to what really means to live, to give more to others…

Quitting is never really an answer.I always tell the people who buy my paintings that every painting has its story.Every single piece is really unique.One piece can take a year, one masterpiece can be done in 20 minutes. Everything has its own story and that I spent many hours in my kitchen painting and in isolation.I have made many different life changing stories there in my kitchen countertop, creating something that came out from my own world.So when I packed a painting to its new home, I always write ” Thank you for giving my Art their new Home…”

Painting through Pandemic is a radical step to being vulnerable.That creating something should not be hindered by isolation and stress.I learned that through my art, I have known things ,not until I have seen and made them.Art creates and dissolves boundaries and even through crisis and stressful situations, I could make Art.

If you have more time to kill, Here´s more of my Art Journey ;

My very own DIY Bamboo Lamps

Fluid Art is the new Art

Fluid Painting , Malachite Hues

Faces in the Crowd, my watercolour´s Journey

Little Women Mosaic Aquarell Artwork series

Little Women Mosaic Watercolor Artworks

Little Women original watercolor Artworks / JustbluedutchArt 2020

Finally it´s Autumn…!

Lately I have been admiring the works of Alexej von Jawlensky, and I must say that He, among others as well, is the inspiration behind these latest paintings that I did.If you are an art nitwit like me, you must have realized that there are so manyyy talented Russian painters ,with extraordinary mind and brilliant art philosophies!Alexej von Jawlensky is part of the Blue Rider group, and later the Blaue Vier (the Blue Four) and is part of the New Munich´s Artists Association.Part of his life was also spent here in Germany.

In my free times, I love to read about the Gallery of the Masters of Art, especially the Classic Modern Art from 19th to 20th Century. I still cannot forget how moved I was when I saw the ” Nightwatch” by Rembrandt which is by far one of my favourites from the Baroque Dutch Golden Age era. And now, since I am also into Abstract painting, I decided to play more with colors and textures. I love it, I think I finally found the forte that I ´ve always wanted to do with my abstract pieces.As a self-taught artist, I love to widen my craft by learning more about the Art masters.I think there´s no harm in doing that, after all, there is no “must” in Art, cuz it´s free.

My favourites from Alexej´von Jawlensky´s paintings were the “Spanierin,1913 “ and the other piece of his painting of a lady in red holding a bunch of red flowers called ” Die Pfingstrosen” as shown below beside the portrait I have made. I love to paint women´s portraits combined with elements of nature and a bit of playful imaginary mosaic patterns.Big eyes, colorful burnt orange skins, proud noses and lots of bold accentures makes it all unforgettable!

Close up details of Little Women, original Watercolor Art painting /JustbluedutchArt

Alexej von Jawlensky´s works are full of wonderful sense of colours, just like his colleague, Wassily Kandinsky, also one of my favourites, Their masterpieces were colorful, vibrant and lush and at one point in time, evolving. I find it very fascinating that He also, loves to paint women´s faces in particular. Red is a very dominating color and the expressions in his paintings are gripping in my imagination. I love this type of style that moves me to think.

Little Women / JustbluedutchArt 2020

I began painting Women´s portraits I think last 2 years ago. I love the fact that women are great art subjects and it can convey so many different emotions and characters. Unfortunately, I cannot do any male portrait!

Here´s another piece which I highlighted a woman´s face and I remember looking at her eyes as if I was seeing a different character which reminded me of earlier years of my life.

Woman and a Child , Original watercolor Art /JustbluedutchArt 2020
Woman and a Child with Alexej von Jawlensky´s “Die Pfingstrosen”
Art sessions in the time of Pandemic

Hard times let me escape from reality and dream of colorful world of Art. I guess my Art reflects of my dreams, emotions and experiences.I love different tints of colors, I seldom paint black and white or mono chrome tones.For me, colors play a huge part in delivering the emotions behind the painting, just like the lyrics which feed the poetry in audience´s ears.

Little Women original Aquarelle Artwork /JustbluedutchArt
Bring back Summer , Original Watercolor Art / JustbluedutchArt 2020

I would love to gather all these women in the future and bind them in a book. That would be a great refuge for me in the old days. Sometimes I dream that I have met all these women in my life and they have been part of me.It is like they are all in me and they all came alive in my canvas.But right now, I am still bent on creating more portraits of women with characters.I would still love to play with different kinds of forms and shapes and blend them in the background, just like depicting the life they live in. Many times, I think my art let me realized that contradictions are great push-overs to magnify your boundaries and edge of reasoning. When someone asks me to describe my art, I just let them view it as they please. I cannot dictate it´s meaning because my work has a deep magnitude for me. Maybe for others, it´s different, or maybe none at all.

Woman and a Child/JustbluedutchArt 2020

Color is the keyboard, the eyes the harmonies, the soul is the Piano with many strings. The Artist is the hand that plays, touchig one key or another,to cause vibrations in the soul.”- Wassily Kandinsky

ArtBlog : Infinitynets Abstract Paintings

A close up detail of one of my artwork InfinityNets where I used net packaging from Lemons that I buy during the anxious times of Corona Pandemic. Nothing is wasted, only creating a beautiful twist of gold, blues and great myriad of textures.
(JustbluedutchArt/InfinityNets 2020)

It´s been a while since I posted about my artworks. I have been busy as usual juggling everything about life. Actually I have done many paintings nowadays and still so many things are not yet done.Quarantine or not, life for me as an Artist is quite the same. I am so glad that staying at home during the Corona Lockdown has done me good. Time is one of the necessities for me so I am glad that I´ve got it especially when I am driven to create something.

Another close up detail of the net incorporated as an added texture in my abstract paintings.It is the little details for me that really counts. Never put a limit to your imagination because the horizons of Art is endless.

Speaking of creating, I´ve been experimenting a lot with my artwork nowadays, testing new techniques and mediums. I am working a lot with Acrylic nowadays, I do mostly Abstract paintings but this time I am using Nets as as added texture medium. Yes, you heard it right, I am using nets from the packages of onions, garlic and lemons that I buy especially during Corona times. I developed a habit of drinking warm lemonade with ginger every morning so I tell you, I have lots of nets in my kitchen.Bow I have found another worthwhile use for them instead of throwing them in the trash.When life gives you lemons, create a painting inspired by it, as they say.It came true to me at least…

At first I tried only a small cut piece of net and pasted it with modling paste and paints, I waited for it to dry then I started to create layers. I saw that it creates a nice effect on the canvas with all the other layering and textures that I incorporate using paste and Gesso so I continued. I find it so wonderful that I got carried away, then I decided to create a series of paintings! Then that paved way for my series called InfinityNets!

It´s called Infinity because the options are endless, it requires no borders. No single painting is the same as the other. Though I used the same hues, the endpiece is unique from the other.

“The longer you look at an object, the more abstract it becomes, and, ironically, the more real.” Lucian Freud

I am using lots of Aquamarine blues, cream, gold and copper accents, carribean hues and an illusion of oceans and islands in my creation. The sea and tropical hues have a very big impact in my paintings. I think blue is such a dominant color that I always use it in all my work.Without blue, I think a painting can be dull. What about nets? I think the texture of nets against the canvas is perfect to create the gradient that I wanted to achieve.Sometimes I´m thinking that I would want to catch a wave and dive back into my childhood or the other way around.

I also love to create small paintings where I love to arrange in rows.With it I have the chnace to play the hues, tints and contrasts with the nets that I used.

It is not always easy to create an abstract painting.My friends always asks me why do I keep on painting, what a stupid question ,right? For me, it becomes a second breath, I feel happy when I´m doing it. Personally, I also never know when to start and when to end it. As I start my first coats and layers, adding the textures and painting again, this repeat process is what makes the painting more special to me.I only know that it is time to stop when my senses tells me to do so.Many people I think are intimidated by Abstract art because they fail to understand its course, its meaning and sense. On the other way around, I think we should not try to understand it, rather let your senses perceive as it is.It defies the norm, it is not normal hues, it is an explosion of unreasonable chaos , but in a colorful, defiant way of Art. If an artwork doesnt disturb you then I think it cannot move you.It´s the same thing with me.I love looking at other´s work, but only a few moved me. Every artwork is different as well as it has different impact.

“The painter must give a completely free rein to any feeling or sensations he may have and reject nothing to which he is naturally drawn.” Lucian Freud

What about you,what is your opinion of Abstract paintings?

Do you like it?

What do you perceive from a first glance?

I would respect your honest opinion about my work.Anyway, this post is not an advertisement or any kind of promotion of my art.It is just a journal of my thoughts on how I create something from nothing, from a blank white canvas into a visual art of my thoughts and emotions.I would appreciate though, if you tell me what you think about it.

I am happy to be alive as long as I can paint…

In the end, my own mind tells me that my paintings requires a little mystery, some vagueness, and some fantasy. Sometimes if you always make your meaning perfectly plain you end up boring people because it seems repetitive and obvious….I always tried to make it Less, so it can become More.

Thank you once again for dropping by …Until next time, Have a great day, Tschüss!